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Couldn't be more hurt and confused. I feel like I'm totally broken. I feel as though everything was smacked out of my hands and I don't understand why. I'd never explain to someone why they should be with me but I'm at a loss. I can't figure out where things fell off and it became my fault. I never asked him to change who he was. I simple asked for him to treat me with a little more affection and love. Is that asking too much?? Oh God, please help me?
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life is about to start.. im so happy, excited, and ready to make things happen
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[24 Apr 2007|01:59am] |
love..
No joke. I'm not sure tho...
Its been so long and I don't even remember.
Haha I'm duffy sometimes.
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cause its not working out for me. I don't like being adored and ignored the next day. Its really fgt and I mean come on kid get yo shit together (for lack of better words).
Its like he takes my kidness as weakness and he's got it twisted. Cause that shit aint that way. I call the shots and I'm the brains in this pink outfit (so to speak). He needs to think about what's going on and how he plans to fix it. I'm not the kinda dame you can play the "hit it & quit it" game. I run the show and there's no way in hell he's guna take control IDGAF how old he is.... fuck that its my time.
The rest of the week is guna be BUSYYY here it goes;
Wednesday- tour le tucson with Yenna, Luis's show @ The living Room.
Thursday-Pima County Fair with the familia
Friday- Timmy High show @ the Rock I'm going to support Casey
Saturday- DFTD & GatRot show @ the Fit Center.
Sunday- rest rest rest rest!!!!
this is guna be a busy rest of the week! I'm ready tho and I'm uber excited!!!!!
[I don't want to ignor Matt but I've got no choice]
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he's been nothing but amazing. But I'm starting to wonder if its really guna work. He plays with head a lot and sometimes my head needs to be messed with but idk. I don't wana loose him. He's the best thing I've ever seen. He's always amazing and lives his life. I couldn't ask for anyone better to adore. This is the war that I didn't want to face. I'm not sure of anything right now but I'm sure that I want him and I'd do anything to keep him.
Dftgyhujmik,oldfgh I'm so confused.
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[07 Apr 2007|01:55am] |
I want to be forgotten, and I don't want to be reminded. You say "please don't make this harder." No, I won't yet. I wanna be beside her. She wanna be admired. You say "please don't make this harder." No, I won't yet. Oh dear, is it really all true? Did they offend us and they want it to sound new?
Top ten ideas for countdown shows...
Whose culture is this and does anybody know? I wait and tell myself "life ain't chess," But no one comes in and yes, you're alone... You don't miss me, I know. Oh Tennessee, what did you write? I come together in the middle of the night. Oh that's an ending that I can't write, cause I've got you to let me down. I want to be forgotten, and I don't want to be reminded. You say "please don't make this harder." No, I won't yet. I want to be beside her. She wanna be admired. You say "please don't make this harder." No, I won't yet...
I'm so mad. Friday was a fucking bust... I'm so sick of it. I'm sick of my shady ass "friends". I'm so done...
Andd he doesn't like me complaining... I love how much of a jerk he is. Makes me adore him that much more. He's not afraid to hurt my feelings and I love that he's so honest with me. Sean Luoma I hella adore you.
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[05 Apr 2007|05:26pm] |
me and my little sis
haha st. pattys day PWND
its how we do!!
my and Pris drunker then fuckkk(and yes fuckk gets drunk)
my basturd looking dumb and DRUNKKK
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[05 Apr 2007|02:50am] |
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he fills the void. He's just so amazing
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[17 Mar 2007|04:44am] |
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its 4 minutes til 5am and I still can't sleep. -_-
I miss Chim
[However I'm not miserable^_^]
Furthermore, Albert Hammond Jr is my new favorite solo artist. Enough said.
Ninjadisco party tonight! Its guna own!!
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I'm getting Ko-Ko the Clow tattooed on my wrist. He's so much cuter when he's a ghost tho.
http://www.inkwellimagesink.com/pages/articles/findingKoKo.shtml
I looove him!!!!
Chim thinks its silly. Whatever!
He's in Mesa for the weekend. I wouldn't say I miss him cause when u miss someone it means ur misserable without them and I'm not miserable. So lets just say I can't until he comes home on sunday. He's so smart! He's amazing. End and true story.
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[15 Mar 2007|03:06am] |
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Let's go back
Back to the beginning
Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned
'Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect
Trying to fit a square into a circle
Was no life
I defy
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean
I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin
'Cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Then always staying in
Feel the wind
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean
I'm coming clean
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall
I'm coming...
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean
Let's go back
Back to the beginning
Seriously, nothing more could explain how I feel. I'm learning new things about people everyday and for a once I'm looing out. And its insane cause its not intentional I'm just totally into him and I'm so ready to learn more about him. I just don't know what everyone wants from me and why they feel like I owe them something.
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[14 Mar 2007|06:58pm] |
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with my Priscilla<333 holler niggers<3333
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so I took nigger George to get his eyebrow pierced. And yess I went to 4FOURTY4 hehe where else. Gahhh I felt like such an IDIOT cause mr. Messing robs my words and leaves me breathless. He's such a sweetheart. He did such a good job. He's the only guy I'd ever let pierce me. I love being his best friend.
So it seems as tho Mackenzie isn't who I thought. She's a cheating slut and a liar..
Make me sad I wasted time being her friend.....
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[07 Mar 2007|01:48pm] |
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Todays going to own.
Hopefully jenna's in a good mood cause I'm not really for any bullshit today NOR guilt trips
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[07 Mar 2007|02:20am] |
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So I spent the day with Priscilla andit was good. I went to Chim's apartment and watched a movie. He seriously makes me sooo antsy. Its such a good thing but then again idk if I do the same. Blah I wish I knew. I want him sooooooo bad! This is taking longer then I though. And maybe it'll be worth the wait but idk hope for the best and expect the worse. I really like him.....
So I just found out that Priscilla's new roommate is CHIM'S EX GIRLFRIEND!
WTF!!!!! Kinda makes me sad. She's a ballerina, a kinder teacher, she helps at a childerens hospital and she has 3 jobs... I really hope that that's not his type cause if so I'M FUCKED. This sucks I don't know why I'm so upset over it. Maybe cause its his ex and I'm not that kinda gurl or cause she's my bestfriend's room mate now. Total blindside. I'm so bummed.
I miss Tierra so much. My wittle lesbian. Probbaly the best friend I've ever had. I love her so much
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[06 Mar 2007|12:10am] |
So I'm stucj between boys. Ones amazing and he's great. The other one is AMAZINGLY GORGEOUS and makes me soooo happy. He tells me the best stories and always makes me laugh. We have the best conversations about everything and anything. And the first one is amazing too. He's always so nice and he's so aware of him self but he's a lot older then me... idk what to do cause its such a battle. I'm not too sure but I guess we'll have to wait and see.
On other news Friday March 9th at Skrappys in Tucson Arizona is Don't Forget To Die's cd release show. Everyone in this area should seriously be there. It would mean so much. Good music, good bands, good people and hella good memories. Seriously, if any of you kids are in the area, drop by and check it out. Cause its going to be amazing. They're my brothers and I LOVE THEM. Holler at me via the hiptop (520)248-9726 if you need any info.
(myspace.com/dontforgettodie)
How's everyone been?
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[23 Feb 2007|01:01pm] |
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as promised.
Hella missed you guys....
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[22 Jul 2006|10:27pm] |
so im in Silver City,New Mexico.. it fucking sucks here but i did get to meet and hang out with Mark's sister which is pretty fucking sweet... i miss home
anddd im sure that when i get home me and chris are guna get into it.. i hope not...
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[07 Jul 2006|02:10pm] |
so the show lastntie was good. Sonny's band (dont forget to die) was amazing and so were all the other bands! it was good hangin out with Maria it felt like old times! and seeing adam was a treat too! andd i got to kick it with Pris and Sonny... the nite was pretty sweet and hopefully tonite will be too! looks like another nite of streetracing out at speedway!
p.s i miss JohnJohn and i's conversations lol basturd needs to pay his phone bill
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[06 Jul 2006|03:18pm] |
so to sum up the past few months since graduation... fucking sweet... everything has been great except for not having a job but i have enuff money i dont need a job well my parents have money i just use it...
im talking to Ewwwik about old times... hes love!
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